Sorry… It will be soon…

I’m sorry I was literally inundated with serious problems of the life and death sort in the past few days, not my own but other people who I care about. I had to put everything on hold to help several people in the last week or so. I will be dealing with all those pressing questions very soon. I think this asteroid that just passed through had bad energy. It seems like everyone was depressed that I talked to in the last week or so.

So many blessing to all of you,

Denise

Sorry… It will be soon…

Answering a Reader, Fracking and ET’s

From a reader: Regarding the post in which I brought up fracking, earthquakes and ETs.

I love this post!

Do you have any feelings about fracking and HAARP? Or HAARP and chemtrails? I have been seeing so much weird stuff in the sky in regard to chemtrails and the clouds they create. Friends whom live near fracking sites are also saying that they affect the color of the sky even though they may be located miles away. With the barium and aluminum in the chemtrail chemicals it seems they would work perfect with the HAARP/Tesla technology at modifying weather and creating earthquakes. I am so curious as to what your thoughts are on all of these!

Also, it seems to me that these beings, whatever they are, are working very closely with the US government so that everything takes place via our tax dollars and right under our noses. I thought Obama was gonna be true to us too. He instead taught us that no matter who we vote for, we will get the same results because whomever wins… they have to abide by those whom got them into office, the corporate and wall st lobbyists.

IMO, the malevolent beings are working hard to prevent us from realizing ONE thing… Which is that we are all connected and all essentially all ONE. I could be wrong. But, whatever they are doing, they certainly are trying hard to maintain their control.

It’s interesting that you mention chem trails in relation to the fracking. I have seen these as well. They look a lot like missile trails to me which I think is very odd. And makes me wonder if there aren’t experiments going on that we are unaware of. I completely agree that our government is in on something with Extra Terrestrial Biological Entities. There are too many things that don’t add up. It feels to me when I tap into it, that those in charge have just given up, that whatever is truly in charge is too much bigger than them – not only in regards to corporations (which at first I believed to be the main problem) but something behind that, something darker lurking behind it.

We have now reached 7 billion people on this planet. Why have we given up on the space program? Why are we allowing so many people to starve to death? Why is the middle class being pushed down into working poor? It’s was if the fight had gone out of us until this movement, Occupy Wall Street. While I agree  this is absolutely the first step in clearing away the darkness, lies and corruption I have a feeling there is something else going on, something stranger at work. I am still trying to figure it out. As I get feelings, visions, ideas, messages I’ll post them.  It feels as though the human population en mass has been written off and those in power somehow think they are protected. But it is very doubtful that wealth or even position will matter anymore to than a queen carpenter ant matters to us. She’s just one more ant to get rid of when we want control of the ant population that is destroying our home. I think there has been a movement toward dealing with this transformation of earth in a non-violent and positive way – at least until that was no longer an option. I can’t help but feel the level of frustration at humanity is something along those lines. I’m not sure what is behind this bigger looming transformation – is it earth changes? Aliens? Or some sort of consciousness or dimensional shift. However I do feel that this is the first time in a very long time we are going to actually going to start getting a sense of it – this corruption and greed has been so much at the forefront of the collective consciousness that as a psychic it’s been hard to read past it – sort of like when a client comes in and you see their husband is having an affair – you first have to deal with that, make them aware of that lie before the next problem can be solved. I do feel though soon we will start getting a sense of this other nebulous thing that is coming on the heels of this clean up. Whatever it is, it feels much bigger and more alien than anything I’ve felt up until now. In fact if you talk to most psychics, including myself, around 2000 was about as far in the future as we could see back in the 80s. Then it’s been a shorter leash in terms of the ability to project forward – as if all the decisions and fate are still being decided. We’ve entered into a very weird time. No doubt about it. I never believed in “The end of the world,” but I think there is something so big it will lead to a huge destruction and rebirth over this century. By 2100 we will be very different and so will the earth, that’s about all I know for sure right now.

Many blessings,

Denise

Answering a Reader, Fracking and ET’s

Answering Readers and Animal Totems

From Juno:

Thanks for your recent posts and your encouragement to those of us disheartened. The movement gives me hope. If the protests are both Owl and Spider medicine, then one can hope that the Awakening it is sustainable and will grow.  

By the way — if spiders are weavers of fate, what does it mean if you get reoccurring spider dreams?  These spiders were friggin’  massive, and they    were on ceiling beams over or near my sleeping son both times.

Spiders in dreams mean weaving a new fate for oneself and also they are related to storytelling and writing. So perhaps you have some stories that need to be told – major, big stories. And of course, a change in one’s fate.

I had dreams of sacks of baby spiders and bats growing on the side of my home years ago – related to a bunch of dreams about the earthquake. At the time the home was odd – not like the one I lived in. Long story short we had to abandon our home after the earthquake and lived temporarily in a place that had some features of the place in the dream. Ultimately, we settled into a home very similar to the one in the dream. Also oddly we often have sacs of spider eggs growing on the side of the home here – loads of spiders on this property.

For anyone with a bat dream or seeing an actual bat – it means transformation, death and rebirth. It’s the death part that gives bats a bad reputation however, they don’t destroy positive things – just things that need to go – so they are destructive in a positive way and then help you through the transformation to rebuild and understand what has occurred.

BTW I love the co-opting of the V for Vendetta mask that people have used for the protests. It’s important to put all information possible about the protests on the web because the main stream media will try to downplay this uprising. After all they are corporations and they fear (as does the entire system) real systemic change that will force the game to be played fairly.

For those who are working on meditating everyday, the next step will be posted in a couple weeks. This is the age of Aquarius – meaning we will no longer be followers – we all must learn to carve our own path to the Great Spirit.

The Great Spirit speaks to us not only through our heart, dreams, meditation but also (if we are paying attention) augury as the ancients believed and I have had a multitude of experiences with and can speak for the truth of this first hand. I have lived in cities (major cities and suburban areas around – Chicago and Los Angeles) my entire life yet I have seen owls more times than I can count. I once saw 5 of them hanging out at the LA damn after a series of dreams about seeing them with a friend. I happened to be walking at the damn when I saw these owls with that same friend. It was actually during the day – just before sunset – and the owls were of 5 different types. Each owl was doing something different. One was preening, one was eating a snake, one was staring at me the entire time – directly. The other two were hanging out, spreading their wings on occasion but generally just there. I wanted to stay longer, but my friend got tired of watching them. However we still stayed for about twenty minutes. This was just one of more than a dozen experiences I have had with these animals.

We all have a multitude of different animals connected to different sides of ourselves. My animals are mostly nocturnal although not all of the are. I encourage you to get a copy of the Medicine Cards and also the Ted Andrews books – the first and most important is called, Animal-Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & Small, there is an ancillary book (if you really get into it) that goes into more esoteric animals he wrote called, Animal-Wise: The Spirit Language and Signs of Nature. These two books are the most extensive and complete of any of its kind. Almost everything you see on the web is basically a quote or a re-write of the information in these two books.

If you look throughout your life you will find an animal that often comes to you. It could be mice, horses, dogs, cats, bats, whatever. Everyone has multiple totem animals. However one will often find a particular animal that appears more than any other. For anyone interested in learning more about divining by animals to check out the Ted Andrews books on the subject and to purchase a set of Medicine Cards. People often complain (even psychics or especially psychics) that they can’t read for themselves but there are ways around this. First of all if you are familiar with a particular system such as tarot, astrology or divining rod, etc. You will often find that using these tools to answer personal questions will be confusing because it can be read how you want to read it rather than how it really should be read due to the issue of desire getting in the way. I had this problem after doing a lot of readings for others and getting attached to my tarot deck in a very concrete immovable way – meaning each card came to represent a very specific problem and due to this I couldn’t read myself. I was working 60-80 hours a week giving readings and most of the problems were about love, some about career and money so my cards became bent through that lens. I however wasn’t trying to use the cards for those issues. I was trying to use them in the way I had when I first learned – for spiritual guidance. My cards had become too mundane in their associations for this purpose.

So I bought the Medicine Cards and found they were able to break through all of that and get to a deeper spiritual place. I found them extremely helpful especially for those who were readers and spiritual people trying to gain deeper insight into their souls and the roots of their problems. And then I found after a while I bought  a different set of tarot cards and used yes/no spreads to answer questions about dilemmas. I would always pray for the truth. A yes/no spread can not be fudged. I then stared using a pendulum for the sake of speed. Again before doing so I asked the Great Spirit to give me the absolute truth. These are some ways to tap into one’s psychic ability for use on one’s own path.

I do agree one can’t give a traditional tarot reading for oneself as there are too many ways to interpret the cards and we will always want to see the best which leads to delusion.

If one wants to be taught about clairvoyance and clairaudience – meditate on the owl and ask for his/her guidance.

Many blessings,

Denise

But always remember to do PROTECTION! No matter what – never skip that part of a meditation or ritual!

Answering Readers and Animal Totems

War is here… now

Here’s my answer to a reader about Donald Trump and all that he represents:

Besides Donald Trump being a dangerous horrible idiot he’s also a narcissistic egomaniac. I think he really believes he could win the presidency because he’s a dangerously delusion person. Of course he would completely ruin this country if he were elected into office because he is about as diplomatic as a live grenade. Do I think he could win? Well all I have to say is Arnold Schwarzenegger. People seem to be in love with celebrity – we have replaced the pantheon of Gods and Goddesses with morons, narcissists and idiots. Perhaps we need the old religion which had more examples and pathways to the Great Spirit. Perhaps we yearn for connection through those who mirror us. Unfortunately if this is true we are in a very sad state.

We are currently in a class war – one that dates back to the blowing open of the gates – the Watergate era, followed by the first truly corporate president Ronald Reagan. I’m not sure Reagan knew the damage he was doing. I like to believe that he was hoodwinked by the right to be the spokesman of their (internal in terms of doing it inside the government) coo without really knowing he was. His son, whom I greatly respect, is primarily the reason I believe Ronald senior was most likely a descent man used (as so many middle and lower-income people are being used now) by the wealthy to advance a truly amoral agenda.

I always scoffed at the notion of “trickle down economics” firstly because I grew up in a very affluent neighborhood (that we didn’t belong in – we lived in a townhouse on social security checks and life insurance my father had bought years before his passing when I was 10). I knew the hearts and minds of the very wealthy in ways very few are privileged to know. I knew their children who espoused their values without the crust of age and experience to keep their real feelings and philosophies covered. I heard some of the most unimaginably amoral, immoral and hideous things said as common truths – social Darwinism was a given in the most extreme sense of that statement. There was no empathy for the underprivileged, only a social club that went into the ghetto to teach illiterate children as a sort of bait and switch to their true value system which was the belief that the wealthy are better – they deserve more, they are supreme and the poor are lazy, stupid and deserve what they get even if that means suffering and death. Hideous but absolutely true – many probably won’t believe me. In fact I know people won’t believe me because I’ve been telling people, friends, descent human beings this since I was entrenched in this bizarre world where people went to church on Sunday and then sucked the earth dry of every resource in order to hoard it for themselves. Yes, it is easier to fit a camel through the eye of a needle than a wealthy man into heaven. I saw this first hand.

The first stage of the war against the poor and middle class was to dismantle the unions. Sure some were bloated, some were corrupt but lest we forget what life was like before they existed – just pick up a book by Dickens and you’ll see clearly the way the rich like it. The civil war – a rich man’s war to keep their slaves, using the poor southerners via their racism and pride as a tool against their interest (living) to fight a war that only the wealthy truly had a stake in and only the wealthy benefited from – this is a perfect example of the way many of the wealthiest one percent would like to see our country go – if they could have slaves again, they’d do it in a heartbeat, hence the dismantling of the minimum wage, next it will be age restrictions for working if they get momentum on the wage issue.

There are two kinds of rich – old money or the idle rich as I like to call them, who do nothing but live off the achievement of some great, great, great, great, grandparent who actually contributed something to the world during their time and then invested the family money for generations to inherit. These idle rich hate the “Nuevo riche” the people who newly acquire money – meaning the people who actually earned the money they became wealthy from, the Bill Gates and the Steve Jobs of this world. You know the people who actually really produce jobs for regular folks, not the people who live off the fat left over from their (once common low to middle-class) ancestors. Those “old money” people spend their days taking care of themselves and their money, buying influence, protecting their interests and making sure they can make more money in the market. It’s interesting that they are usually the very same people who accuse poor people of being lazy when truly they have no purpose on this planet and are more akin to tics than human beings. They live off all of us who actually work and keep their world moving forward. The biggest way they contribute to the economy is through buying things, fancy furniture, fine art, clothing, etc.

Now here’s the thing. The 1960s was a very scary time for them, coming off the heels of the most financial growth of anytime during American history. The middle class grew to enormous proportions, the rich got richer as did everyone. You’d think that the wealthy would look upon the economy booming and love it because it means more money in their coffers. But with more money, more education came and people started asking questions. Why do we have to fight the communists in Vietnam? Isn’t that a sovereign nation with the right to decide its own fate? Riots took place, the left became extremely radicalized and the wealthy started to become the target of the growing understanding that a capitalist culture is antithetical to democracy as it stood. Money buys influence and effects legislation. The tying together of corporate interests with the government is fascism and as we all know corporate interests are generally not in line with what’s good for the average person, such as toxic dumping, air pollution, and endless problems associated with industry. Not to mention the corporate bottom line is biggest when they have low overhead, cheap labor and don’t have to pay taxes. Break up the unions, you break up people’s collective bargaining power, work on the congress – lobby for tax breaks for corporations and pay less taxes you get the idea.

All of this has been going on – this war began after FDR put in place regulations to control monopolies (the original source of the world financial crisis that plunged us into the Great Depression as well as Europe, especially Germany). It was those regulations or laws, which were based on the same sort of laws we as ordinary citizens would have to follow (in principle) that kept capitalism on a relatively even playing field. The breakdown of which over the past 30 years we are now seeing the results of.

Forget the history lesson above, here’s the point I want to make invention, intellectual leaps, progress and solutions don’t come from the rich, even jobs don’t, only a very small minority of jobs come directly from those newly rich people who actually are contributing members of society. Invention and intellectual leaps come from the middle-class, the class of people educated enough to want to reach upward and grab the golden ring not people sipping Manhattans while tanning themselves in Tahiti. The wealthiest one percent don’t have an incentive to solve anything, for them everything is solved, they are taken care of. Sure there are those rare individuals who want to contribute and who I salute like the young documentary film maker who exposed his world in “The One Percent,” an excellent entrance into the way people are indoctrinated into this bizarre entitled ideology and also a revelation on many other fronts.

If we lose the middle-class we become a third world country. And we also lose any chance we have of solving Global Warming, of advancing civilization or developing space travel. The rich will own us (as they wish to) and we will eventually be pushed into fighting or dying or both. They have successfully used racism/sexism/homophobia and fear to divide us. They have so confused the average person that he/she often votes against their own interest.

It is not a coincidence that the world is literally being flooded, deluged with tornadoes, earthquakes and soon hurricanes at unprecedented levels. It’s a wake up call: we must come together and fix what is broken.

I ask those who have the power and money to actually make a difference in this world these simple questions: What will it be worth when you have everything and there is nothing and no one left to lord it over or give it to? Are you that insecure you need to feel better than other people, is that what blinds you to the suffering and pain surrounding you? Do you love your family? If you answered yes to that, then what the hell are you doing to preserve this world for them?

Many blessings to the good and may the greedy find the world as wicked as they are,

Denise

War is here… now

Answering Curious

Here’s a post from Curious 123…

Dear Denise
I hope all is well. I know you probably don’t feel like talking politics but it has been along time and I haven’t really seen postings from you lately about what’s been going on in the political world.
My mind has been sooo uneasy that I’m afraid to watch the news. The negativity is so mind blowing that it is truly unreal. I feel like I’m on a sinking ship and there’s no lifesavers around! I was wondering if you have any political insight… what about this “Tea party movement” or what has happened in Delaware recently… Will Palin please go away!

Do you still to readings or email readings? if so, what do you charge?
….I hope you do answer my post

Hi there,

Believe me there is no one in this world who is more sickened by the state of things than I am. It makes me literally sick.  However I do believe the Tea Party’s “victories” will end up back firing on the lot of the Republican party because they are a re-dressed modern (so far, non-violent) version of the KKK. They try to mask their racism with… really nothing, it’s just not being called out. What are they “taking back the country” from? A black man, is the answer in case you wondered. Pure and simple. They are a bunch of scared, irrational people who are very marginal. There are 2 types of Tea Baggers (I refuse their new less stupid name because they called themselves tea baggers first showing their abundant lack of smarts).

1) The extremely wealthy or those who think they are wealthy or will soon become wealthy – thereby fitting under the heading delusional; they are taking advantage of the 2nd type… 2)The Leave It To Beaver white people who woke up one day in an America which was fully integrated. And they realized they had to compete with everyone for top billing. They couldn’t claim the birthright of being number one simply because of the lack of melanin in their skin. They now have to earn their right to advantage and they don’t like it. I’m not saying all these people are bad, just ignorant, often they live in entirely white communities or have no real contact with anyone outside their tiny myopic world.

But here’s the thing, most people are not that isolated. And with each generation past Pluto in Leo (the me generation), there has been more and more integration and less and less tolerance for prejudice. I believe that integration of schools and the subsequent integration of all things has shown the majority of people all human beings are of one family. We all want the same things, to be loved, connected and appreciated.

Here’s an example. When I was a kid I used to hear people whisper behind my back, “She’s from a mixed marriage!” My father was Jewish and my mother Catholic. This was the early to mid 1970s. Even into the 1980s when I was in junior high school, the Italian Catholic boy who took me ice skating told me his parents would no longer allow it since I was Jewish. Of course, I actually had been baptized and confirmed Catholic myself by that point since my father had been dead for a couple of years and I needed something to make sense of the loss. The Rabbi had told my mother to raise us in her religion since she didn’t know the Jewish culture.  I was also regularly called a kike when I lived in a non-Jewish neighborhood after my father died. And forget about black and white people marrying back then or even being friends. One couldn’t even show that in an advertisement or a TV show or film. There were some kids on my block (who I related to because we had this same issues only their situation was more extreme) their mother was Philippino and their father was from Santa Domingo (the other side of Haiti – he was of African descent). They were treated like crap at school. Compared to what they had to go through, I felt lucky. Of course, the 2 girls and the young boy became my closest friends. They were Catholic and when my father died and I went through the process of becoming a Catholic I picked their parents to be my Godparents. They took me to church regularly. And I loved this family very much. And once I started standing up for them in school, the racist slurs lost their luster and kids left them alone for the most part.

I believe it’s important to realize there is sexism and racism in our culture. I also believe that one should not allow other people’s BS define them. If someone doesn’t like you because your Jewish, black, Asian, white, Muslim or whatever than it’s their loss not yours. This being said what is happening now is the exposure of the dark underbelly of institutional racism rearing its ugly head – hopefully for its final annihilation.

Change takes time, often generations worth of time. The Me generation who pushed forward the progress of Civil Rights impatiently complained that nothing happened (back in the 1980s) that things were still the same. They were wrong, very wrong – things did change – we have the first African-American president in our history due to this change. What didn’t change was them. Ironically, the same generation that fought for the rights of African-Americans is now the main thrust behind the Tea Party. What they are responding to is themselves or the liberal side of their generation 30 years later. This is actually a backlash against their own progress and if we see how silly and small and pathetic they are (the Tea Baggers that is), we can see that it will only backfire on them. David Duke (for those who don’t remember, was a KKK leader who ran for governor in the south) could only hide his hate and stupidity for so long, eventually with enough rope he hung himself. If the Republicans keep losing to the Tea Party, great, they’ll lose the general election and it will be good news for the broader world at large. Let’s not forget that a huge percentage of Republicans are from Latin countries (they are often in agreement with the family values side of the party or pretended values they supposedly “support”) but with the Tea Party targeting them as the enemy, how many people from that community will support someone who wants to throw out their friends or Abuelitos?

Slow and steady wins the race. As frustrating as it is that change doesn’t happen faster, Obama is making great strides in putting our economy back on track and as this information trickles out and the Tea Party exposes its grossness I believe things will right themselves. I will look into it on a psychic and astrological level though as we get closer to the elections.

Make sure to vote!

Oh, and Palin is a Narcissist with a capital N. I actually dissected her chart when she first came on the scene if you read it now (it’s still on the blog) you’d swear I wrote it after all the craziness came out about her. Just use the search box for the article. I don’t think Palin will go away anytime soon – she’s the voice of sheer stupidity and it seems that America always needs one of those. If it’s not her it will be someone else, so at least she’s easy to make fun of.

I want to take this opportunity to talk of the evil side of the Aquarius. I’m an Aquarian so I can speak of it freely. There is nothing worse than a bad Aquarian, let’s name some – Dick Cheney, Sarah Palin, Dan Quail, Ronald Reagan. This is because they often appear so friendly and nice. However Aquarians can be very manipulative, narcissistic, self-centered and petty (their shadow side is Leo where the Earth sits when the Sun is in Aquarius – so it’s all the dark side of the sign of Leo, not that Leos are bad. The negative side of Leos is Aquarius – every sign’s opposite applies to this theory). I have to say I’ve had more negative experiences with bad Aquarians than with any other sign other than Sagittarius. Often these 2 signs seem to get a free pass in astrology as if they don’t have dark sides. However there are statistically more Sagittarians in jail than any other sign and they are also the luckiest, which means they are doing lots of bad stuff for a long time before they get caught. And of course Sags and Aquarians are not either bad or good (like all signs) there are negative and positive people of all signs, we all manifest our dark sides differently. It’s my opinion we should never look at the winter signs as somehow more evolved than any other sign. We go around the wheel many times and there are highly evolved people about to jump off the wheel of Samsara in all signs and there are low dark energy people of each sign as well. Ghandi was a Scorpio, Mother Teresa a Virgo, Einstein was a Pisces, Charlie Chaplin and Adolf Hitler were born just 4 days apart the same year – both Aries. It’s all how we decide to manifest our charts. We have free will and we are part of God. How we use our divinity is up to us.

Best wishes and many blessings,

Denise

Answering Curious

Answering a Reader…

Sineade wrote:

Interesting post Denise and Tina. I’m especially interested in getting your opinion on if you think the internet enhances ones psychic ability or disables it? I feel that people are becoming increasingly psychic and intuitive and I wonder if we will ever reach a point, where everyone just becomes psychic and it becomes a normal ability.

Also on another side note. Do you recommend any books or practices to enhance ones intuition?

I do think people are becoming more psychic. Or at least more open to it. I believe this is due in part to new technologies, more people with access to capturing types of technology – such as video, audio and photo equipment. It has also become OK to share ones experience, people are not just written off as crazy and more people are acknowledging their own brushes with the supernatural as information gets out there about what to look for.

If 2012 is going to be a marker of anything positive, it will be that we are more awakened. There is some very interesting moves technologically that are bringing us closer to opening ourselves up to understanding what is beyond our 5 senses. Some of them have to do with using a sense to trigger other senses, some are theoretical like string theory. All of the breakthroughs science is engaged in are actually prove out the vastness of our multiverse and supporting the notion of an animating force of which we are all a part.

I personally believe this is exactly what God is. It was always my supposition and actually I was literally kicked out of my high school English class – a Great Books style class, when the teacher asked the question, “Is there a God?” My answer to her was perhaps for those who believe there is the experience of God and for those who do not their isn’t. I was going to go on to say that it was my belief that the Universe or God is eternal, without beginning or end and we were all a part of it, some unaware, others conscious when she said, “Either you’re pregnant or you’re not.” My response to this was, “How can you apply physical rules to a supernatural being?” And that was it for me. I was literally told to speak to her after class and not allowed back. I don’t think she’d ever had a student give her an answer that was quantum before. This was many years before quantum theory was really mainstream and I hadn’t even heard of it, and I was a geek who read science magazines and astronomy textbooks, so…

Anyway back to my point, God is not just in the heavens, in a spiritual home/heaven we go back to, but also in all things – all things, like an artist who leaves His/Her mark (I believe God is genderless) on all things, on the very quarks and electrons that make everything possible and I also believe all sentient beings have eternal souls and it is that eternal soul which is a piece of God thrown out (at our choosing) so we may learn, grow and individuate in other words evolve.  At that point we know (but don’t really understand like a that a child) that with this choice will come suffering, despair, pain, love, joy, ecstasy and everything in the middle, yet when we make that decision it is just intellectual we haven’t experienced any of it yet, and that is why we decide to incarnate, to experience all of this – the darkness and light, good and evil so we may find who we are among all the many colors and shades of creation.

As far as getting in touch with your psychic ability there is something that I really want to caution anyone who is interested in exploring this realm about. It is actually a theme I’ve heard repeated now over and over in weird places which is why I bring it up because for me, much of this was dealt with many years ago and I sometimes forget how intense the awakening process is. I experienced it throughout my childhood and young adult life and still continue to do so however I have learned ways to control the worst of it. One quote I heard went something like this, “When one gets closer to God one gets closer to the Devil,” or something like that. What this means is when you open to the divine, within it lies both negative and positive energy. God is neither “good,” nor “evil” God is energy. I believe God at the core of connection, the Creator aspect of God is divine pure love, however in order for us to learn we needed a binary system. And their is a destroyer aspect, some call it the Devil – others yin and yang.

God or our universe was set up with oppositions, light and dark, good and evil, black and white. There are demonic forces without a doubt. I’ve had my run ins with them. They are very frightening. They do not respond to traditional religious spiritual paths, meaning they will not go away by asking for help from Jesus or getting a priest to bless one’s home. The only way to keep them at bay while one is opening to the light is to learn (very rigorously) psychic protection and the best there is, is the lesser pentagram ritual which I have written about on this website. You have to be in control and you must be the one to exorcise them, no one else can really do this for you. It is part of the path, the choosing, facing one’s fears, one’s demons and you must rise above them and cast them out. No other force can do this for you except you can keep them away with the lesser pentagram ritual. I can tell you that as soon as I learned it and performed the ritual in my mind every night before I went to sleep, I have never had another demonic encounter. Even spirits stay outside my home. I often go outside to talk to people who are trying to get a hold of me because the force of this protection is so intense that even benign spirits of people who have passed on can not enter if there is anything less than absolute purity which of course no human being possesses even on the other side.  One has to invite those spirits of ancestors in, sometimes they can come in to protect one, but mostly they don’t disturb the circle. I would first learn this protection before anything else and do the lesser pentagram (just search my site for the words and info, I also have a link to someone doing it on u-tube, you can probably find others who do it as well). And then start with meditation.

One must clear the mind and have control of the mind to tell what is one’s own thought from what one is receiving from elsewhere. It’s a rigorous process of keeping notes often of dreams, patterns, and finding ones own spiritual metaphorical language. It’s worth it. However it is a life long process, many lifetimes long, one that we all will eventually engage in if we are to awaken. I’m just warning you that as you open yourself up, you open yourself up to everything; love, pain, suffering, healing, anger, the dying earth’s energy. It’s not always easy to deal with. I believe this is why I have always had many health problems as this energy overwhelms me at times.

Any type of clearing the mind sort of meditation is the first step. Then find what things you are attracted to. Have you always been fascinated by Buddhism? Or by a statue of Hanuman you saw in a museum? Or perhaps Diana or Jesus, Mohammad, whatever your calling. These are the deepest recesses of your past life work and it’s best to work with the system or pathway you have already been on for many lifetimes. Just find the place in that system that best fits you. Or perhaps you are like me and all those religions call to you in different ways. Well, you can take what you need from them and navigate as best you can through many paths. I think though starting out, it is best to have one path you dedicate yourself to entirely and learn that before opening to other things. I’m not saying one should ever dismiss anything, just commit to one thing so you can find your center and go from there.

Hope that helps.

Best wishes,

Denise

Answering a Reader…

Some Random Thoughts Before Answering More Readers…

A post from Tina:

I’m fascinated by your description of the Internet as “cold chaos.” Although (perhaps because) I’ve worked in technology for the last 20 years, I see its limitations; I’m disturbed that few others seem to. Here in the Bay Area, people seem to see  technology as the silver bullet that will fix all our problems, including public education.  Just replace the teachers (being human, they must be the problem, right?) with laptops loaded with corporate content. People also seem to feel that online interaction is an adequate substitute for face time. I fear that the Internet is starving our spiritual need for community.

My reply:

Hi Tina
It’s such a weird feeling I got when I first went onto the internet. I’m actually very left brained as well as right and was working in computer animation during the early 1990s. So the internet was sort of an exciting idea. I had a friend who was a big champion of it but when I logged on, as I said I felt this very creepy, cold void as if there was an alien intelligence that seemed very connected to the shadow side of us, rather than the conscious side. Of course that seemed to be what took off first, pornography, voyeurism and it unleashed this strange (now cultural) narcissism that I think was contained in people through direct interaction with others.

IT felt like we were going to meet our shadow on the other end of that line and it really scared me. The other thing that struck me was attached it seemed to be the energy of chaos, I mean in the universal way, often seen in ancient cultures as a force for evil. And of course it was the final wall that ripped down public and private life, which I’m not sure was such a great thing.

Perhaps one day we will be able to fit all these things back together and elevate it all to a better place but for now we seem to be having trouble with the darker side of this phenomena. It seems to have way too much power on the way people think and feel and I believe it contributes to the delusions we have about the economy, jobs and the stock market.

I know it sounds strange, but there is so much information out there, yet very little of it is really checked like it used to be in the old days, by multiple sources. Blogs are opinion based, and often based on half-baked information, and traditional media outlets are going more toward copying the editorial style of blogs. We’ve nearly lost the 4th estate. We have no one to really put the government’s feet to the fire and those that are trying to do it are doing it with mid-evil methods and coo-coo statistics.

We are more divided, less tolerant and the dark sides of who were seems to be overshadowing the light. It’s interesting to note all the Celestial bodies that have been discovered since the turn of this century and how kind of creepy most of their legends are. Almost all appear to be dealing with the shadow side of our nature. (I am actually working on making a list of these planetoids and their dark rulerships to be released in the future.)

To get back to what Tina said. It’s a HORRIBLE mistake to let computers become teachers. And I’m also against testing teachers and children like they are robots. If we can’t come up with an organic, holistic way to determine what kids are getting out of school and what teachers are doing, than something is wrong! The people who are in charge are not checking in on the classrooms, aren’t listening to parents, and aren’t taking into consideration other types of development. Sometimes, I think we’ve forgotten how to be human and it’s just as important to teach theater, expressing one’s feelings, art, music, political science, critical thinking, as it is to teach math and reading.

I have a sibling who is severely dyslexic. We were opposites. I was in gifted classes, they were in special ed. We were both freaks on the opposite end of the spectrum. My sibling has a very high IQ but their condition wasn’t fully understood. It’s now coming to light that people with dyslexia have a different kind of brain – one that sees literally in 3-D, and so words – which on a page are 2-D, are an impossible jumble. My sibling never really learned how to read and write past the 1st grade level (until they went away to a special school in their 20s that approached things in a radical new way). Yet my sibling is actually very brilliant and can take build anything, figure anything out, has the mind of an engineer. I wonder what the schools we went to would do with a kid like that now when they have to take those “every child left behind” (pun intended) tests. It would make it look like those teacher sucked.

My point is different kids learn differently and forcing children to reguritate information onto a test to satisfy some quota isn’t good education, it’s good martial training. And it’s really stupid.

By the way I read an interesting article in “The Mountain Astrologer,” for those of you who don’t know about this magazine and are interested in astrology, it is by far the best of the best – there was an interview with Carolyn Myss who is a sort of New Age guru. I kind of stay away from New Age stuff, but I started listening to her Sacred Contracts lecture on tape and agreed with a lot of it, some of it struck me as a bit nutty. And I found her a bit full of herself and someone with a kind of a angry, arrogant energy that turned me off. I really don’t like it when people make up systems and seem like they’re winging half of it, and while I thought she had tapped into some truths, I felt a lot of it was sort of recycled from other metaphysical sources or could be found via other places, not to say she didn’t believe she invented it. I just have read a lot of occult books and have studied spiritual ideas outside the mainstream for a long time and had heard what she put forward said many ways, many times, with many different twists before. But it’s always good, however to make it new and get people thinking so I was happy to see her books do well as they undoubtedly made people open to new ideas which is always an excellent accomplishment.

It’s also my opinion that anyone who is that sure of themselves is invariably wrong about a lot because while one must invest in their ideas, one also has to remain open. And one never has all the answers, as soon as one thinks this, one is crushed by reality by the Universe.

Also being a double Aquarius I have a natural distrust of authority and I really don’t like being put in the position of guru which was why I originally left the practice of reading for people. I’m not always right. If one changes their path the outcome will change, which in my opinion is the reason readings are valuable, so one can correct their path.  I’m not omnipotent and I can’t control fate. It’s an unfortunate side-effect of the work that people want to turn you into a guru or a god. For example when reading some people they will argue and try to convince me why what I’m telling them shouldn’t be (as if I can change the outcome of their path!) I’m psychic not God!

Unfortunately, psychics themselves can get caught up in this power trip (which I’ve seen) and it’s really not cool to say the least. That was what ran me out of the work. While I wanted people to listen to what I was saying and take it seriously so they could change their future for the better, I didn’t want them to be under the illusion that I was anything more than a messenger. These lines do however get blurred for some people and that made me uncomfortable. I really didn’t want to turn into a “Spiritual Leader” at 22 years old. I was wise enough to know I didn’t really know anything. However now I understand things more clearly and feel more comfortable relaying the messages I get, mostly because I understand them now! But still I’m just the messenger! This was my problem with Myss in a nutshell, she kind of had to much ego about the whole thing which in my opinion dulls the ability – kind of like what I suspect happened to Sylvia Brown, maybe she was psychic at one point, now she’s just an egomaniac.

However, in this article Myss mentioned that before every expansion of her psychic ability she would have a run on grand mal seizures and then they would go away when her new abilities opened up. Unlike, Myss I was born psychic however like Myss I have experienced this same phenomena. (We are also both from Chicago. Supposedly, a place where more psychics are born than an place else – although I didn’t read the book about the subject.)

I had a grand mal seizure when I was 17 which was just after a major surgery and I was put into a drug induced coma, which was really awful, within a year of that experience my psychic abilities, which I had tried to suppress (due to being an adolescent just trying to fit in, instead of being called, witch and freak) broke open like a damn and I really thought I would die as a result of the enormous, wild, intense energy that felt as though it would engulf me. I worried (with good reason) that I would turn into a human fire-ball (not to mention many other extraordinarily bizarre events). My psychic ability was in control of me rather than the other way around. I had to find a teacher and when I was 18 that’s what I did.

Again, when I had my daughter and my abilities became more integrated and changed form, I too suffered from (this time a series of) both grand-mal and petite-mal seizures. So I think Myss’ is onto something here. I think there is some sort of wiring or neurological component to being psychic. Like that reader who could put his hand on the electric fence, some of us, perhaps are truly wired differently.

As another note, I’m currently watching Nightline Primetime special about the brain. I’ve read research on the topic they are covering as well – there is a lot of evidence to suggest people who are violent offenders have disturbance, damage or are born with problems in the frontal lobe many become killers/serial murders and mass murderers.

Interestingly, they not on the program that this lack of energy in the frontal lobe, which indicates murderers is also seen in people obsessed with religion in a zealot like way – perhaps this is why religious wars and suicide bombers exist. This research seconds my feeling that those who voraciously cling to religious zealotry do so because they don’t feel an internal moral compass. People with frontal lobe issues may need to have rules and regulations and a prescription for how to live a normal life and fit in. And perhaps having a strong traditional religion where they are fortified in their belief and kept in line by a large group they can belong to, also helps them keep it together.

Another interesting article I read recently in Discover was about the shrinkage of the human brain in the past 10,000, which as it turns out has been quite substantial. Some have put forth a dumbing down theory. My belief (which is also another scientific theory with some modification on my part) is we have become domesticated and no longer need to have this over-developed aggressiveness (domesticated animals’ brains shrink over  a period of 12 generations) also we are more specialized in what we do, therefore streamlining our brains and probably creating a different sort of wiring that is more complex, sensitive and different. As it turns out there are many animals who have “small” brains, but research has shown they are actually as, or more intelligent than animals with much larger brains he size. It’s not how big,  it’s how the thing is built. My laptop is more powerful than the a thousand NASA computers from the 1960s and it is certainly much smaller!

Interestingly, the theory that prevailed in the 1990s that we would become one light-coffee colored homogenized group (think of the Benetton Ads which were based on this theory of the future – now not talked about much due to scientists’ fears of dealing with all the racial politics, although again this is silly as we can all be equal and not the same but anyway…) as people intermarried. In actuality we have become less like each other.  There are more differences between races, in terms of physical structure and performance on various tests than before, all of these things are indicitive of finding one’s niche and passing it along to one’s prodgeney. And perhaps the areas we grow up in due to our race, or the opportunities we are given due to our ethnicity. And of course we are much bigger than all of that and break out of every rule put on us and people are so much more than any of these things.

I’ve often thought that our DNA is actually an internal tape recorder – that what we do in our lives gets encoded and those talents get passed along. Why else would some have a talent for music, art, math? None of these things are necessary for immediate survival, one can’t draw oneself out of starvation or sing themself out of being eaten by wolves.  Yet one can not deny that seemingly learned traits get passed on, often skipping generations which means it can’t be entirely attributed to one’s environment.

We are clearly a mix of so many complex elements, our environment, our genes, our soul, our past lives (in my opinion), our point on the wheel of individuation – that there will never be simple answers to anything. Some people will rise above mental illness or indications that they should be sociopaths – compassion will develop in a different part of the brain and compensate. Some people will have everything they need to become schizophrenic except it will never be triggered due to the luck of growing up in a happy home and having a very stable environment until the point of the trigger is rendered moot. We are complex beings, spiritual, emotional, physical, metaphysical and  multi-dimensional.

I will continue answering the rest of the questions throughout the week. When I’m done I’ll open it back up to people who need help. But make sure to check because I’m just going to do it for a day next time and then answer what I can, and close it down. I’ll keep doing this for until I don’t have time.

Many blessings and best wishes to all,

Denise

Some Random Thoughts Before Answering More Readers…