I’m coming out of the spaceship

Shortly after Cal-Arts (where I was in the visual art department) I was not only a full-time 60-80 a week working psychic. I also had a band. I wrote, played guitar, sung and basically it was all me for a while. An EP was put out in 1996 by Krown Pocket, around that time David Lovering of the Pixies joined the band (mostly because he had the hots for the bass player in my band Kendra Sparks). There were many incarnations of the band – me being the only part that never changed – we finally settled on Kendra and David and then they started dating and I was sort of a voyeur in my own creation. About a year later we started talking with a subsidiary of Sony records and they wanted to put a record out. My band mates wanted to wait it out but in the mean time I had to have surgery and was told (as a result of the surgery) my face would be permanently paralyzed on one side. I went through an intense regiment of hypnotherapy. I was told that I would be paralyzed anywhere from a week to the rest of my life but there was no avoiding paralysis. I didn’t feel like wearing weights on my eyelids to go to sleep so I spent all my energy working on having no paralysis at all. Needless to say I woke from surgery with no paralysis. Because I had the surgery at UCLA I had a plethora of med students streaming through my room in awe that there was no paralysis, making me smile, grimace, etc. I was told over and over again it was unheard of since the operation required moving the main nerve that ran through all the facial nerves on my right side. To further complicate and make it even less feasible that I should get away without paralysis was this was my second operation for the same tumor which had regrown. It had started in childhood and went five years, growing into the size of a football, tentacles growing throughout all the nerves in my neck and up into my medulla oblongata – the part of the brain that controls all vital functions, breathing, the heart beat, etc. It was a week away from killing me the first time. I was 17 at the time and was told after waking up the operation had taken over 18 hours and was then told how close I had come to both paralysis and death which would have occurred within the week if the surgery had not taken place. So the second surgery was much trickier, there was already lots of scar tissue and it took me almost a year and half a dozen surgeons to even find one willing to do this risky surgery. Needless to say I lost interest in my band as my life and possible paralysis was first in my mind.

However my husband brought out the record tonight and we listened to it. Strangely it held up and was better than I remembered so I am going to share it with you all. You can download it for free if you want or just listen or ignore it completely.

Many blessings,

Denise


Here’s the first track. The others will come in subsequent posts. This EP really fits the creepy Halloween mood. It’s great to listen to while driving around in the dark and looking at Halloween decorations.

I’m coming out of the spaceship

Answering Readers…

The first question comes from Sinead. I actually have a half-written post from about a month ago that I never finished regarding this subject. I’ll have to post it later.

Sinead704

Hi Denise: Did you ever hear of 12/21/2012 being the end of the world or possibly earth changing? Thanks, cusious about it astrologically…

Hi Sinead,

Yes, I have heard this because it’s when the Mayan calendar runs out. People have speculated that it signals the end of the world. The Mayans broke segments of time into worlds, kind of like western astrology does via ages. However they used different language to describe this then we do. Instead of ages like the Taurus age, the Aries age, the Pisces age (which we are in the tale end of) and the coming Aquarius age, they used the term world and they paired it up with animals and animal Gods who had significance to their culture. 

The fact that their calendar ends December 21, 2012 could mean a lot of things. Perhaps they just calculated their calendars until they ran out of steam figuring they would get to what was beyond 2012 when the time came. Or they saw that as the pole has shifted backwards through the zodiac, in our recorded time from Taurus all the way through to current Pisces, with Pisces being the last sign, and perhaps for them a similar astrological configuration symbolizing the last sign, the pole then goes past the last western sign (and maybe their version of a last sign) to point toward Aquarius. Either they saw this a quandary to figure out later, or as some have stated the end of all worlds. As we are currently living in the last sign in the grand procession of ages before going past the final sign of Pisces, they may have had a system that mirrored ours and perhaps this is when (in their system) the pole shifts completely toward the next sign.

Some have speculated that the end of all worlds means a vibrational shift that would happen at this time, others Armageddon.

Also take into consideration this date falls on winter solstice, traditionally an ending of one year as the God dies and is reborn and beginning of a new year. It could be very simply that they were forecasting the end of their own culture and the demise of the world they had known, sort of like the bible has done. Of course with global warming, an economic depression and wars raging all over the globe it doesn’t seem that far off to imagine the literal interpretation to be accurate.

It’s my belief we will experience a period of purging and destruction that will be followed by a new well spring of humanity, which hopefully will be (and I believe it will be) a collective evolutionary shift toward greater enlightenment at the end of the storm.

Let’s face it, we don’t seem to learn much from love, peace, and roses. We seem to need a little butt kicking to get us straight from time to time. I wish it weren’t so, but it seems for the majority of us, we learn through loss and hard times not through appreciation of what we have. Our lower tendency is toward greed, which we don’t always even know we are exhibiting. For instance we have plenty of food, shelter, clothing, a loving family, a nice home, a good car, a wonderful job and we wish for a bigger house, more money, more power, etc. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, it pushes us to be bigger and better than we are, it’s often called ambition. But the negative side of this means we aren’t truly present in our lives appreciating all the good we have and learning from it. Some of us have the ability to do so, but most of us have a motto more akin to that old Rolling Stones song, “I can’t get no satisfaction.” Personally, I liked the Devo version better, but then I’m a dork for Devo.

I’ll re-read the post I was writing about the Mayan calendar ending and put it up in the next few days.

Sally Herr

Perhaps you have answered this question previously. What is you sense of conspiracy theories regarding 9/11? Thanks. Sally

Hi Sally,

I think I did answer this in a previous post, but it’s fine. It’s my intuitive feeling that the Bush administration knew about what was going to happen on 9/11 and there was a conscious decision not to interfere, but rather exploit the situation to further the neo-con agenda. This was my first initial feeling the day of the event, despite some friends rushing to say that it was actually planned by the Bush administration. I did not have that feeling. Of course facts have come out which were documented in Michael Moore’s film confirming my feeling. I don not feel or believe explosive devices were already in place in the towers. The heat from the fuel, and the poor upkeep on the flame retardant material that was supposed to cover the metal skeleton of the buildings, allowed the metal to bend in on itself, causing the weight to collapse the buildings.

The fact that invading Iraq had been a neo-con objective since the last war and an excuse was needed to justify breaking the Genova convention, I believe was why the events of 9/11 were allowed to take place. Why else would there be a stand down order issued? Besides the long standing friendship with the Bin Laden family, which is why they were the only people allowed to fly besides our president who never touched ground. When we needed him most he was playing chicken in the sky.

I’m not saying there wasn’t a conspiracy of exploitation, willful ignorance, and apathy. I just don’t believe they went as far as planting the bombs and ordering the terrorism. The terrorism was inevitable if one looked the other way, and that’s what they did. In that way I do believe they were co-conspirators in waiting for the shoe to drop, so they could use it to whack their enemies.

Id

aha …….. mercury retrograde these sort of things happen. yesterday I spilled liquid on my laptop ( first time ever and hopefully the last ) first thing I did is turned it upside down, unplugged the power cord and held the power button till it shut off. after that I took a few paper towels kept them between the screen and moniter and left the computer upside down. Turned it on today mornings and it’s working fine. keys are a bit sticky but freeing up… ………. dont ask me what I spilled on it and I do not drink milk not after I was weaned away 🙂

Hi Id,

Urggg! Mercury retrograde! It’s enough to drive a person crazy. Have you noticed people also drive erratically during Mercury Retrograde? I’ve seen more near misses and accidents during those periods then any other time. I think your right about the missing post. Hope your computer is OK. 

Hopeandaplan

Hi Denise, Mercury retrograde. I’ve lost calls and emails this week. I had a question about the increase in autism. Do you have any theories or any insights through readings you may have done with families of autistic children? Thanks!

Hi Hope and a Plan,

I’ve done research about autism because of my pregnancy, and of course, my now one year old daughter. It has always been my feeling that it will turn out to be environmental toxins. For awhile people were concerned about Mercury in vaccines, but that was removed about 10 years ago, and the incidents of autism have continued to soar and have actually gotten worse. The anecdotal stories of people noticing their kids (mostly boys get autism) exhibiting the signs shortly after vaccination made me spread my daughter’s shots out because I felt it wasn’t so much the vaccination as perhaps overloading a baby with too many things to try and fight off, and perhaps for babies (especially boys because of the x chromosome and the fact that this makes them biologically weaker health wise) who are already dealing with toxicity, a bunch of vaccinations that overload their immune system is enough to set the autism ball rolling. 

I know some scientists think it is genetic, but I have a feeling it will turn out to be a number of toxins, and could also be further complicated and linked to the breakdown in our immune system caused by exposure to more UVB rays then ever before. 

grace43

((hugs)) I think this happens to everyone at one time or another. Pres. Obama is asking everyone to contact him with ideas at change.gov. Do you think he actually reads these emails and uses the ideas? If he does will our Congress also actually start listening to us? That will be a nice switch. Once I wrote a letter to my Congresswoman and she wrote me back that she was doing everything she could to stop people like me. I have had better luck with my Senators, but I really feel things would be different if they actually read their mail instead of their employees.

Hi Grace,

I bet he would read an e-mail if it had a great idea. I’m sure he has other people fish through them first. That’s a pretty cool thing to hear though. I wasn’t aware he’d put that out there.

Best wishes and many blessings to all of you,

Denise

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